Trust in Him

Crazy Love, pg 123. "Jesus was forcing his disciples to trust HIm. God would have to come through for them because they had nothing else to fall back on. This place of trust isn't a comfortable place to be; in fact, if flies in the face of everything we've been taught about proper planning. We like finding refuge in what we already have rather than in what we hope God will provide. But when Christ says to count the cost of following Him, it means we must surrender everything. It means being willing to go without an extra tunic or place to sleep at night, and sometimes without knowing where we are going"

That is it. That is exactly where Brandon and I stand right now. Unsure of where we are going- sure in the fact that He wants us to trust Him. He wants obedience from me. No excuses. This is what I struggle with right now. I feel I can say, " I am ready Father, take me" But, I wanna know the when and where. It's almost as if my willingness to go is based on that. I'll go... when I know what I am doing. He might allow some to know the details, but not us, not now anyway. He is saying, "Follow Me". He told the disciples the same thing. They didn't get to know what was next. Where they were going, what they were going to do. So why should it be any different for me? Why do I think I get to see the where and when, and then say yes or no?? It is not based on that!! It is a simple yes or no answer. I seem to get it mixed up so easily-like I might change my mind if I knew the specifics. I would have to then argue that it's not a genuine yes, I will follow you. It has a contingency plan. But, He is telling me, loud and clear- that is not really following Him then. So, I am learning to trust in Him. To really follow Him. One day at a time.